As I was pulling out ornaments and stockings this year (and every year) as I came to Tacen's it brings tears to my eyes. I said to Cade, "does it ever get easier!?" It always seems to hit! I always miss this sweet boy. There's a few thoughts that come to my mind first is that because of Christmas. Because our Savior was born. Because he lived. Because he died and was resurrected. Some day I will be with my sweet boy again! So with Christmas it brings so much to be happy about. Secondly my thoughts are turned to the time we had with Tacen and the memories we made. We have his duckie oranment (2010) that we picked his first year because he loved water so much. Then his second Christmas (2011) is his hand ornament. We tried at least half a dozen times to do his handprint and he kept making it squishy. It's not perfect, but it's his hand and it's priceless! Then 2012 the year he passed away we went to Hobby Lobby to pick our yearly ornaments. Cade and I picked one for us and we picked the big red truck ornament with presents in the back. I remember as we picked it and were walked away one fell off and broke and I remember thinking and saying to Cade, "that Tacen must have been there because it seemed that it was something he would do." Every year since then we've picked various trucks, carts, trains, etc. for Tacen's ornaments for the year. I love seeing them on the tree and thinking of him! Lastly we have his stocking. We love having pieces of him in our lives and in our home! It is hard to experience each year without him, but we have so much to be grateful for and most of all I'm grateful that one day we'll be together again!
