Fast Approaching - T's 4th Birthday

Tacen's 4th birthday is almost here. We will be letting off 4 blue balloons in his honor and wanted to again invite anyone who would like to participate with us. We'd love for you to share his special day and we'd love to see pictures.

Last year we also took some gifts to Bunny Lane at Le Bonhuer Hospital and donated them in Tacen's name. This was one of the last things that brought a smile to Tacen's face and a really positive memory we have of him at the hospital. If anyone wants to donate to that you're welcome to join in as well. We are hoping to deliver them on his birthday July 2nd! 

Heavenly Father Knows What We Need

Over the past few weeks I have felt such an overwhelming sense of peace. It's as if Iszella has filled a void. A void I knew was there because Tacen was gone, but I didn't realize how much having two children here again could make me feel so fulfilled! There is no way Iszella could ever replace Tacen. I still have an ache and hole in my heart. I still miss Tacen. We always will until we are together again, but I have been amazed at the pure joy Iszella has brought with her arrival in our family! 

I was out walking with Iszella in the stroller behind Cade and Daxon on bikes. I sat smiling realizing I had all that I needed right there! Of course there will always be more that I want. Most especially Tacen, but I know where he is and I know I can move forward without him here. So with that being something I can't change. I know that I have all I need in Cade, Daxon and Iszella. They bring so much love into my life. These two kids bring so much joy to my days.

Iszella has been such a sweet, calm baby. She handles her brothers numerous kisses each. She is just what our family needed right now. It helped me realize the importance of following the spirit by having her when we did even though I might not have felt prepared or ready! Yet she is just what we needed! Heavenly Father has a way of sending us what we need when we need it, if we heed his promptings and follow his plan for us instead of always assuming we know what's best for us. What an enormous blessing!!!
It also got me thinking about how we needed each child when they came to our family. Tacen had so much to teach us in such a short time and we learned so much from being his parents. I know he was meant to come first to our family.
Then there is Daxon. He was fussy and it was hard, but I had Cade around the most after he was born of all of the our three kids. Having Cade around made it easier to handle. Daxon is such a sweet, loving boy. He was so important in our healing process after Tacen passed away. We needed him then.
Now we have Iszella. She brings something different into our family having a little girl. I love watching her daddy and the way he is gentle and soft with her in a different way then he has been with the boys. I love seeing this. Iszella has brought love, peace and an added measure of healing to our hearts and family. I am eternally grateful for these children in my life and what they mean to me!