When Tacen passed away I longed to have two children again! Naturally I wanted Tace back (I'd still love that)! Even though most days (and nights) had been difficult I'd take it all back in a heartbeat!
Over the past year and half we've adapted and adjusted! I can truly say I've been happy in our life! There's always (and probably always will be) that feeling of missing Tacen and wishing he was here with us. But in spite of that we've been happy! Daxon makes us so happy! So you can see my reservations and even some anxiety as we began preparing for our new addition. There was excitement, but I was nervous and anxious as well!
Fast forward to the present day! Iszella joined our family and the minute I met her I fell in love (just like I knew I would)! She's sweet! She has similar features to Tacen (but more feminine)! Which is a precious little gift from heaven to see some of T!
Daxon adores her! He's super curious, but oh so sweet with her. He wants to know where she is and what she's doing. He wants to give her kisses and it's all too cute!
We've had Iszella here for 6 days! She has filled a void! She'll never replace Tacen. Nothing and no one can, but it feels wonderful to have two children here again! It feels a little more complete. My life feels more full and worthwhile! I feel like to some small extent I'm finally getting back to where I was in life before T passed away! I feel at peace. I know this is where we should be in our lives right now! I'm grateful for what Iszella has brought to our family! We love her oh so much! I still hold that fear of losing her, I'm sure I always will. Yet, I'm forever grateful for the things she's added to our family! I am grateful for Tacen smiling down on us!
I felt the same way about having Sara. And she also has a lot of similar features to Jaren....it is a little tender mercy to see the resemblance so strong. Love it! So glad you're feeling happy and full of joy! Love you!
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