Shining Star

Shining Star

Monday, July 14, 2014

Nothing I'd Rather Be Doing...

The night before and after Tacen's birthday we had a couple rough nights with both Daxon and Iszella. I woke up July 3 pretty tired and worn out, but all I could think about is how thankful I was to be able to get up with these children of ours! How I'd do anything for Daxon and Iszella because I know what it feels like to not have them here and anything I have to do for them lack of sleep and all is worth it. I was overwhelmed with the love that I feel for these children of mine.
I won't lie and say that I don't have my hard days and I know I could definitely be more patient. But even through the hard, frustrating, exhausting moments and days its worth it all because I love having these children in my life and I hope with all my hear that I won't have to experience the loss of another child in this life time! 
I sat watching Daxon 7.3.14 and thinking how much I love him. I sat thinking the day of Tacen's birthday and the day after how much he means to me! He saved me! Daxon continually brings me so much joy. He just makes me happy!
Now we have sweet Iszella in our lives. She looks so much like her brother it's uncanny! I love having a piece of him in a feminine form. She is such a sweet baby. She has filled a void in our lives and hearts. She's given us the chance to have siblings again in our family. 
Watching Daxon and Iszella together makes me happy inside and out! Daxon loves her so much and she already knows and loves him too! It's a special thing for us to watch and observe. Its something I've wanted in our family since the day Tacen passed away!
These children make me feel loved and needed and I wouldn't trade anything in my world for them! I'm thankful for them especially since I know what its like to lose one of these precious little ones. It's nothing I'd wish on anyone, but I learn and I grow. I know value these little children we do have a little more, because I need them a little more, I love them a little more! They're my life!







Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Celebrating T

We had so much fun seeing our family and friends celebrating T with us. We received pictures of people letting off balloons and also playing in the water. Both were perfect in remembering Tacen with us. We appreciate so much those who celebrated with us and shared their pictures or sent kind words on his special day! We are so blessed to be surrounded by so many who show us so much love! We hope Tacen caught a few of the balloons that were sent up his way!


















A Tacen Day

July 2, 2014 - Tacen's 4th birthday. We had a good, but hard day, as was expected! We got up that day and had breakfast, banana pancakes, Tacen liked pancakes. Then we got ready and headed out to the splash park in Collierville. This was a favorite of Tacen's. Really anything with water brought a huge smile on his face!!! He always loved the water!




We had fun running around in the water and playing with Daxon. He enjoyed it. Sweet Iszella just slept in her carseat until it was time to eat. Then she ate and hung out in the front carrier, she was a trooper especially in the heat!  We ended off at the park before heading home for naps.















During nap time Cade picked up some blue balloons and we got showered. Once Daxon got up we headed into Lebonhuer. We went up to Bunny Lane and dropped off the toys our friends and family had given us to donate. I sadly didn't take any pictures.
We decided while we were at Le Bonhuer that we'd go to our Neurologist, Dr. Fulton's office and pick up Tacen's medical records. Dr. Fulton had also asked us to periodically give him an update on how Daxon was doing, since we never did find out what exactly Tacen had and there's no guarantee our other children won't have the same thing. Cade had been wanted to email Dr. Fulton a video showing how incredibly mobile Daxon really is.
While we were there I thought of our nurse, Lana who was a great connection in getting messages to Dr. Fulton and helping us get past the front desk. Cade asked for her or Dr. Fulton and she came out. We explained that we wanted to see if we could get an email or something to show Dr. Fulton Daxon. She proceeded to say, "oh, he's right here let me go get him!" They both came back out. They both remembered us well (which is slightly surprising since it had been almost two years since we'd been in and I'm certain they've seen 100's if not 1000's of patients)! We sat and talked with Dr. Fulton for an hour!
He was so pleased to see how well Daxon was doing and kept saying, "I'm so glad to see him doing so well." He's expecting a baby himself in a month or two. First child! We talked about that and our plans to move. We talked about Tacen. I mentioned the article I had seen about the children in California with their cells being slightly swollen and wondered if that was at all similar to Tacen. He said the symptoms might have been similiar, but the cause wouldn't have been. It was great to see Dr. Fulton again. He is such a kind, humble, intelligent man! We were so lucky to have him as Tacen's Dr. He even told me that he still had a note on his desk that nurse Lana had written when we called to ask some questions before Tacen was hospitalized. He said he just couldn't bring himself to throw it away, sentimental reasons. What a wonderful man. It was really lovely to see him and really added to our Tacen day!
After Le Bonhuer we came home and had Italian Chicken for dinner with rice. In honor of Tacen loving rice, then we blew out the candles on Tacen's cake, let off the balloons and enjoyed the cake while watching our Tacen video and picture slide show we made. We reminisced about our sweet boy. We miss him and wish so much that he was still here with, but we will be eternally grateful for the way he touched our lives and that we will be with him again. It was a nice day to remember our special boy and celebrate him!