Feed the Animals

The last weekend we had with Tacen we were in Fort Worth, TX. We went to a little stock yard and there were different animals there. Goats, cows, a camel, etc. Tacen was so excited about these animals. We were poor students and we couldn't justify the $3-5 for the small cup of food to feed the animals. We had no idea then that in just 10 days our sweet Tacen would no longer be here with us or I tell you what we would have bought the food! It was such a simple little thing that would have made him so happy and I regret that we didn't do it. In the long scheme of things that $3-5 wouldn't have made that big of a difference, I know that Tacen would have LOVED it.
Since that time I think we often spoil our kids a little too much. We are still poor students and we still don't have much, but we take the chance to do the little things that will bring a huge smile to their faces. We don't always let them have everything they want. We don't always let them "feed the animals" so to speak, but we do a lot more than we did before. Because since Tacen passed away we've realized its the little things that make the biggest difference. It's the little things you'll remember. Its the little things like letting him feed the animals that I regret deep inside. I wish I had let him do that. Because he would have loved it so. Because I can't take the time to bring a smile to his face any more. I don't have him here with me to spoil and oh how I wish I did. I wish I could spoil him rotten. But I can't. So I stop. I try harder with the kids I have. We let them "feed the animals" a lot more because that's what I can do now.
Cade and I reference this experience a lot with one another. It helps us to realize that its ok to spend a few dollars here and there for our children. Especially when we feel like our budgets always tight and we can't do it. It reminds us that we can afford to spend a few dollars here and there.

Here's a video of Tacen at the stockyard. Its the last one that we have of him. Its the last day that we was able to walk. I'm thankful we were able to do something fun with him even if we didn't feed the animals. I love how excited he is over the animals. I love hearing his voice!