Keeping Me Grounded

I have a picture of Tacen as the background on my phone. Often when I'm scrolling between apps or screens I'll stop and look at it. Its amazing how that boy can help me to remember what's really important. If I'm having a hard day, in a bad mood or feeling frustrated with my children, I can look at his sweet, smiling face and it helps me reevaluate. It helps me to slow down and take a second. His pictures help me to remember that I want to be the best me I can. That I want to try my hardest so someday I can be with him again. I love knowing that he's watching out for me and cheering me on to do my best. I love seeing his sweet face in the pictures I have not only on my phone but hanging throughout our home. I am unbelievable grateful for the technology of pictures and movies so I can keep my sweet boy alive in my mind, heart and life! I am thankful for the way he keeps me grounded! Tacen made me a mother, he helped me to grow and learn and he continues to make me a better person! I'm so thankful I get to be his mother! I love you sweet boy!

A New Tacen Picture

A couple weeks ago I went to pick up the mail and inside was an envelop from my dear friend Beth.  She has a daughter getting married soon and I wondered if it was an announcement or invitation or something wedding related. As I opened the envelop, I pulled out a card with a picture of Tacen on it. I sat there stunned! I hadn't seen this picture before! After losing Tacen almost 2.5 years ago I thought I had seen all the pictures taken of him. Tears came to my eyes, tears of joy! I was beyond touched to have a new picture of Tacen after all this time. It's a treasure that I don't often get any more! Beth had this picture printed on a card and inside it explained that this picture was taken at their son's wedding reception. It warmed my heart just looking at it. I love it for so many reasons. Tacen LOVED tractors and anything with a motor! He is wearing is Kiss Me I'm Irish shirt which is one of our favorite shirts on him. His hair is spiked, he has his little brown sandals he wore all the time! It's just a perfect picture! I find myself picking up the card often just to stop and stare at this cute boy of mine who I miss so much! I love having a new little piece of him! A treasure! It's like a gift from him! Love you sweet boy!