Tacen's 3rd birthday is fast approaching and this will be our first without our sweet boy here with us. I had a few hard days over the past couple weeks as I've thought about this and just missed my little boy! Today I was reading here and this part really hit home with me:
"Grief is the natural by-product of love. One cannot selflessly love anotehr person and not grieve at his sufferingo r eventual death. The only way to avoid grief would be not to experience the love, and its the love that gives life it's richness and meaning." from the article, "The Refining Fire of Grief."
I am thankful every day for the love that Tacen brought into my life and the love he continues to bring. I am so thankful for Daxon and the joy of being his mother and the sun spot he is in my life. I miss Tacen. I can't say that enough, but I know that's ok. I know that its ok if I miss him. I know it's ok. But some days that's harder than others. I know Tacen's birthday is going to be a hard day. But I also know that it won't be any harder than any other day. I'm going to do my best to celebrate him on that day and the life he lived and all that I learned from him for the short time he was here with us! I can think of no greater blessing than being a mother to him and Daxon! I will hold my sweet boy in my heart until I can hold him in my arms!
Oh Kels! I have thought of you numerous times over the past couple of weeks as I too have thought about Tacen's approaching birthday. I should have written you a little note while I was having those thoughts just so you knew I was thinking of you. Thank you for continuing to share your thoughts and emotions, however raw they are on any particular day. You are amazing!
ReplyDeleteAre you going to do anything in particular to celebrate his birthday that we could participate in here in Utah? (I have other friends who release favorite color balloons etc.) If so, please send me a message so we can celebrate too!
Hugs, love, and prayers to you!
We love you, and we'll be there :)
ReplyDeleteI keep thinking about how his birthday is coming up too. We love you. He is probably going to have an awesome party in heaven! :) At least I think it is going to be awesome. Let us know if you need anything and we would love to celebrate with you if you want company!
ReplyDeleteI have been thinking about you and Tacen's birthday coming up for a while. Let me know if we can help celebrate with you somehow. We would love to be there!
ReplyDelete